We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Pack Thy Secrets Deep

by David T8tz and His Lovely Friends

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    Purchasable with gift card

      $8 USD  or more

     

1.
I wake alone, there’s no one home, the world is silent, I don’t want it, once upon a time we were all here Laughter, coffee, beans con crema, come and take a shower with me, the girls will be fine for a little while I’ll buy donuts, we’ll go shopping, Goodwill and Salvation Army, we can buy more owls for our home No more, my wife chose her white pills over me, Mama loves the numb life more than me Ooooo You were lines, I was a pen, I’d write our stories till the end, of happiness and sadness I could sing But you had demons you would treat with, have them over, girl we have kids, demons have no welcome in my home Oh no, sleepless nights and senseless fights, betrayals in the fading light, you were selfish, you were wicked, you were home No more, my wife chose her white pills over me, Mama loves the numb life more than me Ooooo
2.
Home 02:13
I’d like you to be home to me Every night I’d come home to you You’d wake up and I’d be there I’d make breakfast we could share In the bath-time there’s room for two I’ll be soap and you shampoo I’d like you to be home to me Every night I’d come home to you You’d wake up and I’d be there I’d make breakfast we could share And then we’d drive real far from here To where wintertime means snow is here We’d look at the star filled sky We’d smile, you and I We’d smile, you and I
3.
Lay down your head loves, and worry about not a thing, for I will be here, I’ll be watching you You can dream if you’d like or you can just close your eyes and let sleepiness slowly fall into you But don’t be afraid of the night, for darkness it helps us appreciate light, and in the morning you’ll wake, feel that sun on your face Feel and sing, sing it out sing, cause you make my heart sing, it sings for you sings Cause I’m filled with love, love, love, sadness and love And you’re filled with light, light, light, darkness and light So give me all your kisses, kisses, oh my little Misses I need all your kisses, I always will Walk with your head held high, let nobody put you down, you are lovely, you’re brave and you shine so bright And though trouble will find you love, just hold your ground, you are stronger than what they can throw at you But don’t be afraid to feel sad, for tears help us fight through the times that are bad, yes even tears have their place, feel them run down your face Feel and sing, sing it out sing, cause you make my heart sing, it sings for you sings Cause we're filled with love, love, love, sadness and love And we’re filled with light, light, light, darkness and light So have all my kisses and hugs, have my voice and all of my love, you always will
4.
Lets dance, dance, dance, dance the pain away Drink, touch, kiss me, love it’s okay Cause when the morning comes we can walk away But tonight we can move, we can touch, we can dance, dance, dance Cause I have gained my freedom but I’ve lost my home I am bleeding, I am drinking, I am sleeping alone And now I’m falling towards a future that’s completely unknown I’ll end up face down in the gutters if I drink here alone So lets dance, dance, dance, dance the pain away Drink, touch, kiss me, love it’s okay Cause when the morning comes we can walk away But tonight we can move, we can touch, we can dance, dance, dance Because tonight I’m filled with fire, don’t you feel the same? I have a tendency to crush on every girl within range But you cannot have my heart for it’s now made of stone But wouldn’t you rather dance with me than be out dancing alone? Lets dance, dance, dance, dance the pain away Drink, touch, kiss me, love it’s okay Cause when the morning comes we can walk away But tonight we can move, we can touch, we can dance, dance, dance Oh girl I know you have a boyfriend but you know he’s all wrong He’s controlling, he’s an asshole, and you don’t get along There’s you and I and there’s this bottle and it’s playing our song So spend the night out here with me cause this is where we belong Lets dance, dance, dance, dance the pain away Drink, touch, kiss me, love it’s okay Cause when the morning comes we can walk away But tonight we can move, we can touch, we can dance, dance, dance
5.
And all I wanted was my pillow But all I found was this empty space in our bed Isn’t this the place where you should lay your head? But you’re gone, I guess I’ll sleep alone And all I wanted was some breakfast I’ll fry the eggs, you make the coffee But in your absence well the kitchen seems so cold Fuck it all, another day of drive thru Never mind what I said, I don’t miss you, no I’m glad that you’re gone! D I V O R C E me, leave me, leave, move it along! Get the fuck out of here I’ll make my own goddamn coffee from now on I’ll grab your pillow and stuff it under mine to better rest my own head on I’ll spread out all over your side of the bed and sleep fucking better with you gone You’re gone gone gone gone gone I’m sad you’re gone gone gone gone gone I’m glad you’re gone gone gone gone gone Fuck you! You’re gone gone gone gone gone Cause all I wanted was my pillow But all I found was this empty space in our bed Isn’t this the place where you should lay your head? But you’re gone, I guess I’ll sleep alone OR JUST FIND SOMEONE BETTER
6.
I don’t wanna break your heart But I have no heart to break And now we’ve come too far to just walk away No, somebody’s got to pay But I’ve got no heart to break Or I would gladly pay your way Right from the start you see I was cheating at this game Cause I’ve got no heart, no stakes Or I’d gladly spare you pain But I’ve got no heart to break to pay your way You surprised me in the evening when you reached to hold my hand Kept surprising me till morning, girl I am only a man But I’ve got no heart my dear Or I would text you every day I’ve got no heart to feel Or I’d be begging you to stay I’ve got no heart, it’s true And I’m sorry it’s this way But I’ve got no heart to break No I’ve got no heart to take No I’ve got no heart to break So just walk away
7.
Adam and Eve 04:11
Wake up, wake up, the world ended yesterday But we’re still here I guess we managed to escape the flooding and the fires The liars mad desires to shape the world in their own images Uh oh, uh oh Well I’ve been thinking that there’s a reason That you and I survived the destruction So I’ll be Adam and you’ll be Eve And love and laughter, we can start it all again Uh oh, Uh oh You look to me like someone I can love Cause tragedy is etched into your eyes And I see my reflection, a soul without direction So take my hand we can start it all again Uh oh, Uh oh Well I’ve been thinking that there’s a reason That you and I survived the destruction So I’ll be Adam and you’ll be Eve And love and laughter, we can start it all again Like Ha ha ha ha ha ha hahahahaha
8.
Well I could love you if I tried to I could tear these walls right down to let you in and bring you closer But I won’t love, no I won’t dear I’ve got too many things to do And I’ve got too much respect for you To turn you into silly little songs Unless of course you’d like to sing along Cause we could sing girl Write our own songs Hit the road to find some new towns Wake up early, books and tea I’ll read to you if you’ll dance for me But you’ve got responsibilities Places to be and promises to keep I know you’re more than just a coda to a song But maybe you might like to write your own? Cause I could play this here guitar And you could dance and sing along Well maybe theres still time to build A future painted fire and gold Cause we’ve got so many things to do And we’re not as young as we once were But this is just my silly little song Unless of course you’d like to sing along
9.
Icarus Heart 04:07
Don’t fly towards the sun, you’ve been there before, and you’ll only burn Slow down fast heart High on wine flavored lips, your tangled desires get caught in the fire Slow down fast heart Slow down fast heart, hold back, love smart Slow down fast heart, she’ll melt your wings apart Fall, you’re falling straight down, your crown hits the ground, it bursts into sound Slow down fast heart Quick, gather up the shards, place them under guard, let nobody near Slow down fast heart Slow down fast heart, hold back, love smart Slow down fast heart, she’ll melt your wings apart There’s tears, there’s tears, they’re in your eyes But I don’t like to see you cry There’s laughter, smiles, down below So let them out dear, let tears go For you are much too filled with light To waste your life with tears inside There’s laughter, smiles, down below So let them out dear, let fear go Slow down fast heart, Slow down fast heart
10.
And you, you’re too good to be true And it turns out that you’re not true You’re just another silly dream I had And I should know better than to dream at all Cause every time I jump I fall, fall, fall I fell for you But you’re not true
11.
Here she comes, she can barely walk again Take my arm, I’ll guide you home again What’s that you say? You messed up once more? But you “love me so”, that’s good to know I guess Every time I stay the night Your body strips away my pride Held defenseless in your spell I grasp at the lies it tells You confess, you think you’re worthless I protest, to me you’re everything If only you could set aside those pills We could build the home we’ve wanted Every time I stay the night Your body strips away my pride Held defenseless in your spell I grasp at the lies it tells I’ve been broken so long Forgotten how to be strong You’ve got little white reasons to move on Little white reasons to stay gone I’ve been broken so long Forgotten how to be strong You’ve got little white reasons to move on Little white reasons to stay gone She says “Please don’t go. Don’t you remember when you were my best friend? I can’t lose that again. Stay awhile. I’ll give you all my warmth. No one else will love you like I do.” Every time I stay the night Your body strips away my pride Held defenseless in your spell I grasp at the lies it tells But I’ve got little white reasons to move on So this will be our final song I’ve learned how to just say no It’s time to take my heart and go It’s time to take my heart and go
12.
I’ve been wincing from the pain Of dancing upon these broken legs My whiskey and my lovers drained away And I can’t remember their names Oooo I’ve been sleeping with my gun At night I like to hold it in my hand Its cold caress upon my neck But I’ve got singing to do yet Oooo I’ve been writing my own songs Detailing the things that I’ve done wrong The melody hides in my throat There are no notes for the words we wrote Oooo I’ve been dreaming of a friend Someone who doesn’t run from whats within She would guide me to the shore Lead me to the edge where I could let things go
13.
He sells all his daylight, he rents out his mind In a three walled asylum that owns all his time He had such plans once, dreams of freedom A pen and a notebook and stories to feed them He’s made a nightlife inside of a bottle He prowls his phone apps in search of a song Companions come easy but they never feed him He’s starving to death in the midst of them all Are we going to, Are we going to Are we going to die this way? Are we going to, are we going to Are we going to die…Mama this way? Cause I’d rather die then see you in such pain We’re trapped in the flames Pack Thy Secrets Deep where no one can see them Pack Thy Secrets Deep and hold them close She’s back on his doorstep, she’s tear stained and windswept She’s only come home cause there’s nowhere left to go Her black eyes match the shade of her track marks The ones hidden between her fingers and toes She says “I swear that I’ll stay clean, our daughters they need me I just need a place I can stay for a while.” One week later she’s crouched in the corner She’s screaming, crying, bleeding and the needle’s on the floor Are you going to, are you going to Are you going to die this way? Are you going to, are you going to Are you going to die…Mama this way? Cause I’d rather die then see you in such pain We’re trapped in the flames But I’ll pack my secrets deep where no once can see them I’ll pack my secrets deep and hold them close Pack Thy Secrets Deep where no one can see them Pack Thy Secrets Deep and hold them close So I’ll drink, I’ll get fucked, I’ll press everyones luck Oh on nothing but hatred I’ll feed There’s an ocean of rage and it’s stuck in my veins And I can’t seem to fight my way free Oh I’ve held it together for the sake of our daughters But my strength is now failing me So won’t you please hand me a drink? Won’t you please hand me a drink? Won’t you please hand me my drink...
14.
Bolide 03:28
I always loved the Fall But now it fills me up with memories I heard a voicemail from a ghost And it disinterred our story So I severed all my limbs A dissociative disorder Some people drink so they’ll forget But I just wanted to remember how to feel I dressed up for the part With bloodstains on my tank top Hell I even played your soundtrack Mr. Young, The Damage Done Jenny please don’t let me disappear. Please… Jenny please don’t let me disappear. Please... Cause I’m going to cross this road And I don’t think that I’ll make it But I know I can’t go back now Cause I know that I can’t fake it anymore Maybe if I drive real fast I can keep up with the spinning One-thousand-seventy miles per hour I’ll never have to see the morning/mourning Cause if you’re the setting sun Then I’ll be a fucking meteor Let me show you how it’s done Burn out so that it’s memorable! Remember! Jenny please don’t let me disappear. Please… Jenny please don’t let me disappear. Please…
15.
Love is just like alcohol Drink deep enough you’re bound to fall It spins you round, it warms you up It’s poison once you’ve had too much I’m drowning in yearning. Death is where the lonesome go A place to rest their broken bones Karen won’t you take me there Griefs made life unsharable I’ve given in to nihilism She say's "No, your soul is still your own So let death go and go back home." Karen how could you baptize me In waters of invulnerability? See these chains wrapped round my soul? They’re meant to drag me down below I came here to drown, please don't pull me out My mirror has a loathsome face A monster's staring back at me There's darkness that’s clung on to me But death might break it’s tendrils free I’m impotent and desperate She say's "No, your soul is still your own So let death go and go back home.”
16.
Let’s pretend and for the sake of argument Say that I could breathe and love and feel again I’ve survived by giving up on all these things I’ve survived by placing all my hopes in chains I’ve survived by running round with lonely girls Finding shelter in the arms of sorrowful strangers In the morning find your things and run away We’ve got no plans for tomorrow just the memories we’ve made And though it’s not at all the life that I would choose You’ve got to make the best of what is left once you lose Everything that you had made before The storm ripped off your ceiling, now you’re clinging to the floor Cause what is left to lose but everything? Could you risk it all again just to feel something? I’ll be out on the corner you can meet me if you’d like Honey we can drink beneath these streetlights. Let’s talk about what’s wrong And how our hearts have been stomped on But in this we’re not alone You’re not alone I remember well the tears shed on the road Alone in traffic when suddenly that song comes on You used to dance to this with someone that you loved You’d face each other and you’d loudly sing along So now you’re stalled, there’s devastation on your face The other drivers, when they see you, well away they race Surrounded by a hundred thousand people but alone But your cubicle is waiting, you can’t turn and just head home But though these days are long and nights can feel so cold Each day that passes, you grow a tiny bit more bold You make new friends, you start to dance your nights away You start to think that maybe you could be okay Cause what is left to lose but everything? Could you risk it all again just to feel something? I’ll be out on your doorstep, you can meet me if you’d like Honey we can dance beneath this moonlight Let’s play our favorite songs on our phones and dance along Cause in this we’re not alone We’re not alone In the morning lets go out, let’s drive away Head to the city where we’ll have ourselves a holiday We’ll walk through LACMA, hit the thrifts in Echo Park And then to Hollywood Forever for a movie in the dark I’ll pack a picnic basket, you can choose the wine Lay out a blanket and we’ll leave old memories behind Cause life is wonderful it’s happening all around And I refuse to waste another moment feeling down Cause what is left to lose but everything? Still I’d risk it all again just to feel something I’ll lay right here beside you, you can hold me if you’d like Honey we’re still here Honey we’re still here Beneath the starlight Here in the dark we see the light

about

There are many ways to describe Pack Thy Secrets Deep but unique, raw, and beautiful only scratches the surface. There is however one word that is without a doubt most true to the character of this record, Pack Thy Secrets Deep is uncompromisingly real. Few people are willing to so drastically cut themselves open and bleed their history into lyrics and melody. This album combines biography, emotion, and melody into a riveting blend that details the destruction of his family during the beginning of the opioid/heroin epidemic and his ensuing battle with depression, post traumatic stress disorder, and alcoholism as he struggled to rise from the rubble of all that he had known as home. It is a heartbreaking, beautiful, and ultimately triumphant story of survival.

credits

released April 25, 2017

Vocals: David T8tz, Olivia Saldana, Krystelle Lorraine
Rhythm guitar: David T8tz
Bass: Carla Capolupo, Gabriel Hartman
Piano: Paul Akers
Synthesizer: Paul Akers
Lead guitar: Shay Capolupo
Harmonica: Shay Capolupo
Melodica: Gabriel Hartman
Saxophone: Gabriel Hartman
Trumpet: Alex Alvarez
Vibraphone: David T8tz
Whispers: Alexandra Jensen
Percussion: Shay Capolupo
Organ: Paul Akers
Banjo: David T8tz
Kalimba: David T8tz
Sound FX pedal: Shay Capolupo
(Cello like bowing sounds are Carla Capolupo using her upright bass.)

Album artwork by Monique Aguilar

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

David T8tz and His Lovely Friends Los Angeles, California

David T8tz has always used music as a way to cope with sadness. From his first heartbreak at 12 years old, he was writing and performing his own songs. He never thought this skill set learned at at such a young age would become so necessary for survival later in life.

(Previously David was the frontman for Winston and the Telescreen.)

Contributing musicians are listed in the track notes.
... more

contact / help

Contact David T8tz and His Lovely Friends

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this album or account

If you like David T8tz and His Lovely Friends, you may also like: